2011 Unfinished

I told myself 2011 was going to be a Johnson & Johnson year
What I meant is there were to be "no more tears"
I guess I should have included the hope of "no more fears"
As I think about it, I was really asking for "no more cares"
But I care too much.....fear too much
And I loved beyond his ability to reciprocate that much
That means I loved beyond his means
The result was a bunch of scattered dreams,
Over-grown emotions clothed in apathy: tattered seams.
Would be best to leave but hard to see that really happening
Even with so little left to burn he's still playing with matches
I throw blame: but he never catches it; barely reacts to it
Reason and Rationality cloaked as friends banging on my common sense, but I turn my back to it
...and get back to it.

2012 Unfinished

I don't think I ever woke up next to you and felt safe
Fuzzy from the smoking and the drinking, sore and satisfied from the sex?  Yes
Like your arms could block out the rain, protect me from pain, keep me in that zone? No.
Clarity always brings regret
So I spend endless strokes trying to forget.
Intense moments of happiness where I laugh and we kiss and I know something very close to bliss
You're a firework, so full of energy and color but after that *CLAP,* the moment is over and it's back to black

I will love you.

I will love you. 

And when you feel like being light

I will bask in your glow

And when you feel like being dark

I will not cast light on your shadow

But when you are dark and want to be light

I will battle until you get there.

In your happiness, I can be content

But so in your sadness, I will not judge you

I will not ask you to change to be the version of you I love most

I will love each variance with equal passion

And do for each what is needed

For you have accepted my beauty as well as my beast. 

This, of all things, is the greatest gift anyone can give or receive in love.

I will not ask you to change

I will not ask you to hide

I will not ask you to suppress 

I will not close my eyes to any of your sides.

I will stare into your corners and never falter

I will not feel shame for you. 

When the truth is bare and exposed I will not look away.

I won't pretend you're perfect or make excuses for your pain. 

When there's nothing left to strip away or do,

Enveloped in this raw honesty, 

This is how I will choose to love you. 

Don't Get It Twisted

I wonder if you think you're my only drunk dial

My only option to go shopping or my only problem child

The last dick I sucked or the last mind I fucked 

I wonder if you out here thinking you got all the luck 

It would be a shame to be that ignorant to think I can't be over it

Or that you got all the control in it

'Cause you're the only one standing emotionless  

I told you this

I been hurt by worse than any asshole u can invent

So my tolerance is negative and your purpose ain't that complex

So no I won't be that upset 

If the sexting turns into neglect

You're replaceable in this part I gave you

The understudy of someone I imagined; you're not even playing you

You only act the part of the man I want in this scene 

And it's just a supporting role boo; I'm the only lead. 

Another Again

This sin...
Started out with us just reminiscing
But ended up with us mostly kissing
Mostly feeling like a thing that was missing
Was found
Like I'm whole when you're around
Or Bound
(uh-huh honey)
And it wasn't about love, you, or us
No, this was selfish but still deeper than lust
A man who would cheat can't be trusted with trust
And trust is a must if I'm even considering love
The same for the woman; it's not a victimless crime
Only 2 wrongdoers but 3 will do time
One dick, two clits,
Three hearts, four tits.
And I can't do the math to understand this shit
All I know is the way it feels when I'm under your spell
It's almost worth the heavy cost of this ticket to hell
First class, yelling "fuck it"
So you did, and I loved it.
I wish simple felt this good
And that I wasn't allergic to doing the things I should
Like I should ignore your call and texts...
Say no to sex.
But my eyes get watery when I try
This is turning into one long goodbye
Well, goodbye again
Maybe this time try to be friends
But we both know how that would end.
...and then end and end again.

Unblocking #1

I'm in a rush and I must get past this feeling that's been stealing all the thunder and the lightning from the storms. I'm not used to staring at gray skies for so long without a drop of rain just the dull pain or the numb that comes from not wanting to burn or yearn. I'm filled with empty but it's thick and heavy; how can nothing stop something from occupying this space. It's a waste. Something died but wasn't buried. Something reeks of bleak. Searched every corner of my soul for the decay but the empty blocks my way.

Leftovers: Part 1

***

almost didn't post this one. First because I didn't want to give any of my former "hims" the satisfaction.  Then because I was concerned with what people would think. How they would judge my heart; the way I love.  But then I thought, this is me. I don't have to apologize or explain who I am. You fuck with me or you don't. This is how I express myself. This is how I purge. This is how I let go. I gotta say, most of the men in my past obviously weren't good for much...except they've given me this extraordinary desire to express myself poetically.  So for that i say, "Thanks fuckers." 

Eloquent, I know.

***

I tried.
I tried to love you past the lies. Past the pain; past the tears.
Past the fact that I've been losing myself slowly for years.
Fuck.
What the fuck is wrong with me that I could see the train coming but still stand on the tracks?
Lucy holding a football and Charlie Brown keeps coming back..
Yes love, it felt like a heart attack.
Bent myself into painful shapes trying to fit into a tiny space called denial
No clue why, not like in our future was me in a white dress and u at the end of an aisle
Felt like Neo learning the truth about the matrix; there is no spoon
And when it came to thoughts of love, there is no food
Coming to terms with the truth that I loved you every day
And you never felt the same way
If I could use your words to thread into a blanket of love
It'd be big enough to cover the world, but not enough warmth to shelter one.
So now I try to tell myself it wasn't real
Not the things you said or the way I feel
Phantom pain; how can I miss something I never had?
How can I conjure up memories of good from something 100% bad?
I'm not concerned with you playing me publicly; my ego never needed the stroke
You flaunting that bitch blatantly is just more mirrors and smoke
I'm secure enough to know that she aint got shit to do with me,
But smart enough to understand if love was real there would be no she.
Just a You and an I; you drive, I'll ride. I drive, you'll fly.
I don't usually get high; not really into drugs
But you, I would inhale deep into my lungs
Made my memory foggy and set my skin on fire
The reign of your passion quenching an unknown desire
Speeding through my veins
Dulling out the pain
......Wait, how did I end up on the topic of drugs?
Artificial highs, I guess that's the topic of us.
I guess I'm lucky to have survived the train wreck
But fuck you for even having me in that shit to begin with.
Asshole.

Work In Progress

Turned off twitter and turned on Tweet.
Let her music heal my soul while I sighed to the beat
Reminisce on the one that got away who I love no less today
Fast forward to the replacement killers that came after his reign
A bunch of pretty faces and slick charm
Wolves in transparent sheep's garb, doing less good and more harm
Each a dissonant melody, destroying my energy;
I set each song to fire in effigy....
Sit and watch the ashes blend.
And as the fire burns and the smoke clears I mourn him and not them
Check my text, see a message from the next who's promising he wants to love me past the passion and the sex.....
Close my eyes and try to plan my moves like I have no regrets
Like I haven't been promised that before only to end up with my eyes all wet
Heart all in distress
Flat lined so many times I must  have nine lives under this chest
Back to the text.....
I try to answer with no passive aggressiveness
Too many times I respond with the anger over a former mess
Frustration and pain have overstayed their un-welcome like uninvited guests
The assholes just stick around like a bunch of low-lives loitering
And I can't tell if the walls that surround my heart are meant to keep them out or me in
Doesn't really matter because the end result is by blocking out the rain I also can't feel the sun
And if I continue to live like this then all those wolves have won
...Nah. I'm not having that shit.
So I'm making a vow to tear these walls down brick by motherfucking brick.
....Oh wait, I forgot about the text...
I clear my thoughts and my heart and I type back "Yes....
Just know that sometimes I might get a little crazy, tired and complex,
And I'm not ashamed to tell you I'm a work in progress."

Until the Song Ends

Kiss me until the song ends
Breathe me in deep and breathe me out weak.
Pleasure over matter
Like what's the matter with my soul that I can't let go of his abuse and embrace your truth
Like does it matter that I haven't given myself like this to anyone but him in longer than I'd care to admit
I pull back and catch up with my senses for a bit
I find myself living by rules I never set, all to avoid regret, thus ensuring my regret.
If I never try, I'll never have, and if I don't get on this plane I'll never fly
You're a different kind of pilot than I'm used to.
I've seen purple clouds before, but the ones you show me resemble the white puffy comfort usually used to depict angels lounging.
I inhale the hookah and try to remember what it was like to get high with him
Before the pain, but after the sin
But I can't remember the way he used to hold me in the dark
I can't find him anywhere in my heart
Still I stand frozen on this line between the zones
Calling you my friend, but you're the reason I never feel alone
Scared to take a leap, but didn't you hold my hand and help me to my feet?
Didn't you make me laugh before I remembered how to smile?
Didn't you wait for me while I went through those tribulations and trials?
*sigh*
When do I say yes?
When do your lips find their way to just below my hips?
When do I let you inside, when I'm both hot AND bothered?
Without blocking my heart; giving you both instead of one or the other
I vaguely hear the bridge as your lips graze the most sensitive part of everywhere...
When did I turn my back to you, and how did you know to kiss me there?
The chorus swells again in the background and I feel my eyes close then roll back
I feel the grip I had on my tumultuous past begin to relax
So kiss me slow until the song ends
And maybe this time when I feel the knock, I'll let you in...

Untitled

The spotlight never made me nervous
But a chic like me always needs a purpose
And after experiencing a season, there was no reason for a lifetime
He's telling me to reconsider but "goodbye" never has a right time
Then I met a guy who immediately recognized the value of my heart
Appraised me from day one as something in need of a better start
He said "I understand why he never wanted to let you go
But I'm glad that decision wasn't in his control
And if you give me half a chance I can be a better man for you"
Then he took my hand and showed me what a man could do
Damn
Too bad I wasn't ready for the blessing I asked for
Too busy looking back at a closed door..
Always wondering if less could have become more.
But looking back is the reason that I lost more....

It's Complicated

I'm thinking of buying you a shirt that says  "I'm single but my girlfriend isn't"
Because every now and then you get a little restless and say "maybe we should end it"
But in the space between the make-ups you're out doing your thing
And only come back when the light I always leave on for you starts to dim
Recharge the battery in my back with "I've been loving you too long to stop now"
Then against my better judgement I'm back giving you everything just short of a vow
Still the love I have for you grows deeper every day
I just don't want to lose who I am for loving you that way
And I've loved you since the days when summer meant we got to be lazy
Since things like "Do you wanna be my girlfriend, circle yes, no or maybe"
Over ten years and my heart still beats for you
But do you appreciate all the things you put me through?
Everything has always been your way or the highway
So I got used to living in a world where things are never my way
How many women would still love a man they met as a boy?
And how do I know for sure you just don't think I'm your toy?
Your good girl, who loves you and would never give it up
How do I know if you're giving your all, or just what you think is enough?
Big girls don't cry, but grown men they certainly lie
And our response by being a lady means we should hold it all inside
Sometimes I convince myself that I could really get up and go
As a matter of fact I think it's the only way I'm ever going to grow
But you've been my best friend and our history is deep
I just wish I really knew if you were playing for keeps.

Didn't I Just Write This?

Somehow I lost my voice in a mess of thoughts
Writers block born from writers remorse -
Fun fantasies make it easy on your eyes
But who would want to know what's really going on inside?
Too personal, too deep. Measured emotions in 140 character tweets.
Hundreds of eyes and my vulnerability meet;
And my strength gets confused with your weak.
So I'll be labeled and judged by the things that I write,
Like I'm a sucker for love and good dick and sleepless nights
And honestly that's not even distorting reality,
But it only speaks to three of my multiple personalities
A bitch, a freak, a sweetheart, a geek
More that you'll only know if you choose to seek
Til then I'm forced to leak
Watch my eyes get puffy and wet
Sunglasses hiding my regret
Tight pussy and a big heart, a gift and a curse
Shoulda given me your best but you showed me your worst
I've dated you too many times but you go by different names
And the lies and the promises are always the same
There's nothing special about the way you break my heart
Nothing unique about the way you tried to tear me apart
Nothing new about the subject of this poetry and prose
You're just another side of the same coin like a dream I wrote
Predicable as the cycle of the moon or clockwork;
And I admit I'd hoped you'd prove me wrong
But you're incapable of anything more than slight work
And thus here's the ending of our love song.

*Curtains*

The Antidote; The Drug

I had it all fucked up.
I forgot love was supposed to be the antidote and not the drug
Wasn't supposed to have me strung out, making bad decisions just to get another hit.
Shit.
And who was I to think I could inhale until the room spun
I mean fuck him til we both numb
I mean suck him til he's all done

You were my playful poison
Toxic words permeating my blood stream til I needed them to breathe
Each time I'd try to quit you'd force a stronger dose
Often mixing the words with the injections - and these I craved the most.
I sigh out a lethargic "what is this I'm feeling" while you pump me full of measured deception
"It's love, baby" and you push deep until I forget this is only your intended perception
And you bury that knowledge with a stroke that's been practiced to perfection

Every time I see you I'm hoping you fill me up
And you, my supplier, gave me just enough love, I mean, just enough drug
Just enough you to make me think there would always be an us
Strung out with a perfect smile...invisible track marks - no needles necessary
Was supposed to be recreational but now I'm laced til my heart ended up in a mortuary
But I feel buried alive, not dead inside
Actually praying for the cold to cover my soul so nothing burns with frustration or desire
Because chasing a high that doesn't exist creates an unquenchable fire

But love is supposed to be the antidote, not the drug
I'm not supposed to break out in a cold sweat when I'm missing your hug
And you'll just sit there cool, calm, collected; smug
While I stand in the street losing my voice from screaming at the top of my lungs
But it's more like a whisper because I'm weak from the blow
And I'm trying to find the energy to just say no.

Making it Hard for Me

You're making it hard for me

My lips are set to say no, and I do
But what was once a yell becomes a whisper and I can't hear my one little word of dismissal over the sound of your persistence.
Still I'm...putting up a resistance.
Ignoring the love, I focus on the anger
I let go of our "before" and I focus on the after
Because my happiness before I learned the truth meant nothing after he made me cry
After beautiful promises made way to ugly lies
...keep telling myself to "hold on to goodbye"
But my thoughts spin and become jumbled and the only thing that's clear
Is you.
Here.
In my face telling me I'm beautiful and impossible to forget
Kissing whispers in my ears causing a tightening in my chest
My answer remains "no" even if a question wasn't asked of me
Even if a statement was made about how your love was for eternity
"No."
I hold on to the two letters like they could save my life
Like they could be my weapon to destroy any vision I had of being your wife
But my voice is shaking and my eyes can't stay still
And even when I tell you "don't touch me," you will
I tell you to stop but your hand is on my face
And your lips find their place
And my heart falls from grace...

....and you're making it hard for me
I turn away and fight the urge to touch you back
Call the bartender over and order a little ginger and a lot of jack
As I drink I wish it would make the light I see in you fade to black
But it just blurs the lines and loosens my lips
Your hand rests on my thigh and with every sip, I drip
You plead with me to ignore reason and logic and follow my heart
"Don't let bullshit like this tear us apart"
Right.
The bartender visits a few more times before the end of the night
I stand up to leave but you're holding on to me tight
Walk me over to the back away from the crowd and the loud
Kiss me slowly like that was allowed.
Like I gave you permission to grab my waist
To consume my energy like it was candy to taste
And how dare my eyes be closed and my body limp
And why is it all I can feel now is a throb, and a drip...
And of course....
You.
Here.
Making it hard for me..

I feel the strength in your conviction pressed up against my dress
"N...Yes"
I mean your tongue is on my neck and your hand is on my breast
"Yes."
I mean my leg is wrapping around your waist, begging for what's next
"Yes."
I mean you grab my thigh pushing me against the wall giving me more and taking no less
"Yes."
I mean I lost the crowd and if you wanted to take it now I'd give in to this mess
"Yes."
I mean I want you to tap into that anger from all the afters and fuck me until I release this stress
"Yes."
I mean you're telling me you love me, I'm you're only and I'm the best
"Yes."
Because there is no rest
"Yes"
 "It's real baby, you don't have to question or guess"
"Yes"

Now I'm just a warm puddle of submission
Trying to forget to remember any of your omissions
I want to stay but I need to leave
I reach down and feel how you're making it hard...for...me

His Version of L.O.V.E.

Let's Offer Varying Emotions...

I'll cry and you can laugh
I'll give you all and you can give me half
When you walk, I'll run, and when I walk, you'll stand
You be the rock star, I'll be the fan.
Say something that makes the crowd adore you
Then tell me how I'm the only one for you

Let Others Verify Everything...

Tomorrow I'll publicize my dismay; keep my followers fed
You can ignore my naked rants and privately text me instead
Privately sex me; give me head
Make it the best I've ever had so the craving has no end
I'll give you everything right back
Suck you slow til you fade to black

Let Our Vibrations Echo...

Your energy bounces off mine; we switch our purpose
Exchange lust for love until the energy is nervous
Unstable, untame; unbridled, unnamed
Confusing art with chaos like they're one and the same
My storm and your calm collide and my body tenses as I brace for the scream
But you cover my mouth to keep all that energy inside of me

Lest Our Vision Erase...

You paint the picture of our "love" every day
But it's funny because, I don't remember falling the same way
Actions always fall short of words unless the noun is 'passion'
I inspire you to rise, but never shine past your arrival at satisfaction
I beg you to let me go; you beg me to let you stay
Your pull is stronger than my push so we always have it your way..

Lust's Obsession Voids Everything...

And we painstakingly try to make the music match the melody
But no matter what, the rhythm follows no beat and the tune is off key
Still haunted by the possibility of what could be, we lose time
We lose trust, we lose heart, we lose patience; at least I lost mine
Used to pray for happiness, now I just pray not to feel the pain
And if the sun refuses to shine at least protect me from the rain

Just Need A Minute

Says he just needs a minute
And I gave him over 365 days
Time doesn't seem to be on my side
Or be enough to change his ways
When love entered our collective vocabulary Hope grew new wings
But the cage of broken promises rendered them two useless things
...and we all know why the caged bird sings...

Sign over my head says "work in progress"
And the errors in my early construction are basically harmless
But there's cracks in his foundation he's never bothered to mend
So he threatens to collapse with a change of the wind
...but we're friends.

So I roll up my sleeves and say let's fix it together
He says cool, but gimme a minute 'cause my design could be better
I tell him he's crazy, the design is perfect; one of the most beautiful ever
And if we don't start soon this minute could turn into forever
...but whatever

He's already shut the doors so I can only comment from the exterior
Yell to him but through the concrete my voice sounds inferior
Those locked doors hold me back from his past,
They guard the secrets in his present he thinks I can't look past
He doesn't see the future's coming fast

Said he just needs a minute
But I gave him over 365 days
Time doesn't seem to be on my side
Or be enough to change his ways
After a while I say I'll come back later, and I head for the gate
He says he's ONE SECOND away and pleads with me to wait
...Its been 7 months to the date.

Tho he's let me in the main entrance, I've never seen the master suite
But he says it will be amazing and he can't wait for me to see it
I've adjusted a few mirrors, hung the address on the door
And I've told him I could really be helping a lot more
He just acts like he doesn't hear me; another locked door.

Gave him a minute then an hour then days now its a year
Try to head back but realize we've built a maze in here
Now I'm stuck between fighting for my own escape
Or fighting to help someone I love find a much better fate
Tough choice to make..
 
I guess I just need a minute
 
Note:  This blog was inspired by Chris Classic's "NeedAMinute" on the mixtape SummerClassic3 which is available for free download here
 

 
 
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Brainstorm

Outside the thunder and lightening fill the sky
The rain bounces against the window and the bottle of wine is empty
I kissed him.
I let my lips give and take the pressure from his while he moved his hands down the curve on my side between my breasts and my hips.
I moaned a little.
Felt my nipples tense with desire and my skin get hot.
I felt the seam of my jeans in between my thighs rub slightly on my now sensitive clit.
I put my hand on his face...a caring embrace
Tried to slow the feeling rising in me.
I pulled away, blushed.
He looked me in my eyes, then at my lips, bit his and re-engaged that kiss
I gave up holding back.
I want what he's craving just as bad if not worse
He moved his hands from my waist down around the curve of my ass and when he found his home, he squeezed.
Again, I moaned.
He continued to squeeze and rub, his kisses went back and forth between continuous and long
To soft and slow, sucking on my bottom lip as he pulled away
Only for a moment...just long enough to look me in my eyes
I sighed.
Felt my hands move down his waist, over his belt, undoing the buckle
Unbuttoning then unzipping his pants...
He kept kissing me until I grabbed the tops of his jeans and pulled them down.
His boxers sat just below his belly button
The indent in his sides were prominent and I let my fingers trace that little valley until I got to the top of the last flimsy piece of material separating me from his glory
I pulled them down, he stepped out of his boxers and his jeans, leaving them in a messy pile under his feet
We moved towards the bed, he's still kissing me, but he's pulled my shirt up over my head, and tossed it in the corner
I push him down, unhook my bra and pull his head towards my nipples, which were now screaming for attention
He takes them into his mouth, his lips enveloping as much as they could, while the broad middle of his tongue applied soft and even pressure to my nipples
I closed my eyes, felt my clit pulsate in excitement.
I pull away, kiss him again, put my knees on the ground and admire his passion
Every vein, the length, the color, the strength.
I was in love with it. I wet my lips and kissed it.
I kissed the tip, licked around the perimeter and kissed it again.
Again I lick my lips, close them slightly and let the pressure of pulling him into my mouth open them just enough
He tenses up and lets out a sound of pleasure
I put my hand around the base and slowly move my mouth over the head
Up and down with soft pressure from my tongue and my lips
He touches my hair and closes his eyes.
My mouth is watering and I take my tongue and wet every inch of his desire
Put the shaft between my lips and slide up and down along the full length of him,
Pausing at the top to suck on the head
He grabs my hair tighter.
He wants it all inside of me.
I comply
Keeping my hands on the base I take whats now slippery and hard and swallow as much as I could.
As I slide him inside my tongue throbs along the veins that are pulsating in my mouth.
Once I've got all of him in me I let let the head bounce up and down against the back of my throat
Opening me up a little more
I reach out with my tongue while hes still fully submerged and I lick the round pockets of flesh that's just past the base
He sighs.
I can't breathe, so I slowly slide up, releasing him, but still stroking him with my hands.
He's grateful for not allowing any interruptions in pleasure. 
I let my breasts envelope his base while I play with his head with my hands.
I kiss his stomach, kiss a trail right back down to his need
I take a deep breath and slide him back inside.
He's so excited, his energy is making my midsection throb against my tight jeans
Every time I move I feel little burst of pleasure
Close my eyes so i can feel where he's throbbing and give those areas special attention
I slide him in and out of my mouth, slowly, then a little faster...
I pause at the tip every now and then, play with it while I use my hands to stroke the shaft
After some time he whispers..."I'm about to cum"
My body feels like I'm going to also
I find the rhythm he loves the most
Bounce up and down on my knees so my breasts come up and down against his thigh
And my clit goes up and down against that seam I told you about
And his dick goes up and down inside my mouth
He grabs my head and starts to stroke against my tongue
All the while repeating "I'm about to cum"
I feel the pressure as he fills up inside me
The first warm salty taste and I'm ready
My body explodes as I orgasm simultaneously
And I suck every drop out until he's drained
And I'm tamed.
The storm's over but I'm still raining

Modern Fairytale: Prince Charming

Once upon a time, in a land only in our minds
There was a prince who was faithful, generous and kind
He had a six foot plus frame and skin kissed by the sun
And though desired by many, he only loved one.
He cherished every moment he had to be with her
Proclaimed his love to everyone, even facebook and twitter!
He bought her flowers on days when he thought she needed a lift
Thoughtful in his gestures, generous with his gifts
His words were bonds and his actions were great
His politeness was evident, even after their first date.
He did not confuse a queen with a peasant or a hoe
And though he only chased money, he put her above his dough
He never smothered her, nor did he leave her floundering with space
He cooked her meals with his own pots, on his own stove in his own place
When she went out her way to return each and every favor
He was grateful for her attention so in her favor, he did savor.
Although a greater lover she would never find in this land,
He was first her best friend, and always her man
When the time came for their opinions to differ from each other
He never called her out her name or forgot that he loved her
He never lied or manipulated; his intentions were true
So she never doubted him when he whispered to her "I love you"
He was impressed with her mind and enamored with her style
He paid attention to the things that would always make her smile
When the time came for them to marry and create children of their own
He was sure to make sure their house STAYED a home
He taught strength through courage and was morally sound
Kept to each of his promises, and his queen always held him down
He loved hip hop and music, but never let a lyric dictate his life
He never used words like "bitch" when describing his wife
....

(to be continued)

Greatest Love

I listen to you and you always make sense
I build up walls and you break through my every defense
I try to hide those things I feel that show my vulnerability
Those empty spaces in my heart that only you fill in me..
But you speak them into the air, and it's beautiful to my ears
You touch every part of my soul from my strengths to my fears
I wonder why I was so scared to hold them to the light
Every time I feel my thoughts going left, you make them right
Nothing compares to you. Nothing makes me feel like you do
It's so pure, the love I have for you
At my lowest lows, you comfort me
At my highest highs you fly with me
You motivate me to do better and be greater
I'm grateful for you then, now, and later.
To you:
My eternal song; ever changing melody
Complimenting feelings through necessary harmony
Pulsating rhythm keeping me steady in time
I hold you in my energy, I keep you in my mind

Thank you.

Good Morning...

Warm body under cold sheets
I feel the pulse slow, even though this city never sleeps
The sun peeking through the shades cause my eyes to flutter under closed lids
I start to move to a more conscious state but I'd rather be dreaming about what he did
Somewhere in the middle I remember his presence above my skin
I feel his energy pulling mine up as his lips moved softly to my cheek, and then pressed in
I sigh happily because I think I must still be dreaming,
I feel my lips get wet in anticipation of what I'm needing
The softness of his touch contradicting how voracious he was last night
Like my passion was something he could just could ignite
He just sets my body on fire over and over again
I fight the love until my body starts to throb and just give in
Again I feel his energy come closer to mine
Feel his lips press against my lips, then my eyes.
I smile
He whispers "I love you" and his voice is so soft and deep
My eyes are still closed but my body is far from asleep
He kisses my forehead and I can feel my love start to form puddles of pleasure
Contract the muscles surrounding my passion to relieve some pressure
Lazily I drift back into a state of bliss
Remembering the satisfaction of every kiss
He stays a moment more, touches my hand before he leaves
I wake up recalling his actions like they were part of my dream
But I still feel his energy; I can relive each scene when I close my eyes
Thats my good morning, and I'll savor it, until he's back to give me my good night...