It's Complicated

I'm thinking of buying you a shirt that says  "I'm single but my girlfriend isn't"
Because every now and then you get a little restless and say "maybe we should end it"
But in the space between the make-ups you're out doing your thing
And only come back when the light I always leave on for you starts to dim
Recharge the battery in my back with "I've been loving you too long to stop now"
Then against my better judgement I'm back giving you everything just short of a vow
Still the love I have for you grows deeper every day
I just don't want to lose who I am for loving you that way
And I've loved you since the days when summer meant we got to be lazy
Since things like "Do you wanna be my girlfriend, circle yes, no or maybe"
Over ten years and my heart still beats for you
But do you appreciate all the things you put me through?
Everything has always been your way or the highway
So I got used to living in a world where things are never my way
How many women would still love a man they met as a boy?
And how do I know for sure you just don't think I'm your toy?
Your good girl, who loves you and would never give it up
How do I know if you're giving your all, or just what you think is enough?
Big girls don't cry, but grown men they certainly lie
And our response by being a lady means we should hold it all inside
Sometimes I convince myself that I could really get up and go
As a matter of fact I think it's the only way I'm ever going to grow
But you've been my best friend and our history is deep
I just wish I really knew if you were playing for keeps.

Didn't I Just Write This?

Somehow I lost my voice in a mess of thoughts
Writers block born from writers remorse -
Fun fantasies make it easy on your eyes
But who would want to know what's really going on inside?
Too personal, too deep. Measured emotions in 140 character tweets.
Hundreds of eyes and my vulnerability meet;
And my strength gets confused with your weak.
So I'll be labeled and judged by the things that I write,
Like I'm a sucker for love and good dick and sleepless nights
And honestly that's not even distorting reality,
But it only speaks to three of my multiple personalities
A bitch, a freak, a sweetheart, a geek
More that you'll only know if you choose to seek
Til then I'm forced to leak
Watch my eyes get puffy and wet
Sunglasses hiding my regret
Tight pussy and a big heart, a gift and a curse
Shoulda given me your best but you showed me your worst
I've dated you too many times but you go by different names
And the lies and the promises are always the same
There's nothing special about the way you break my heart
Nothing unique about the way you tried to tear me apart
Nothing new about the subject of this poetry and prose
You're just another side of the same coin like a dream I wrote
Predicable as the cycle of the moon or clockwork;
And I admit I'd hoped you'd prove me wrong
But you're incapable of anything more than slight work
And thus here's the ending of our love song.

*Curtains*