Two Sides of the Same Coin

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Heads I leave him cold no hello no goodbye no long kiss goodnight
Air and memories are the only things left of me
No touch of the skin no final caress no sounds of my voice
No beating of any dead horse

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Tails I give him one final taste and lace it with love let it drip from my tongue
Warm kisses he'll miss and remember through distance and time
One last reason to sweat and purr and crave
One last moment of divine

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Heads he doesn't deserve this gift; shouldn't submerge so quick
Into familiar pools of warm glory invaded by his untold story
You feed the needy; the greedy should be starved


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Tails I deserve this fix; I reserve this right to mix up my emotions with my chemical needs
After all never will it be as honest an experience as the day after the lies
Everything out in the open; exposed; vulnerable.
Raw and real; take this me and feel
Feel
Feel

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Should I
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Use My
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Head
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Tail?

Single Again

Can't believe I'm single again
My plus one now a plus none
Plus no one cares as much as I do
As I do daily routines like breathing
Like eating and walking, all seems absurd
All seems to have been turned on its head
On his death bed I hope he remembers we
I hope he remembers me and my heart so big
My heart knows things his can't understand
But I can't understand how his don't sting
Don't think I'm gonna smile today or yesterday
And yes I may even crave his deceit; sweet lies
Greet eyes and the heart and mind
And mine were especially tasty to the soul
On the whole I guess time stood still
And I stood willing to take him in
Take his sin to see my place
Seed my grace and seal my fate
Seal this date in a calendar of ache
Of heartbreak and tears and realization of fears
Of years unhad - love aborted
Love contorted.....but I can't believe....
I'm single again.

Dream

Musta been some kind of dream you were having
Walking around outside your reality
At least when it came to me
Labeled me the love of your life
Referring to me as your future wife
The mother of our future child
And you were what? The giver of my future smiles?
Crying your tears at the thought of us apart
"I loves yous" from your heart
- or so I thought....
Summertime confessions:
I was the inspiration to your verses...
I was the inspiration to this version...
of you.

Musta been some kind of dream you were having
Walking around outside your reality
Every time it came to me
Pictures of us smiling and laughing
Long nights of bedroom/hotel/on-top-of-cars romancing
Holding hands on long drives or short ones
Kissing like it was the best way to express love
Touching like that was the purpose of touch
Electricity flowing through skin; igniting something within

Musta been some kind of dream you were having
Walking around outside your reality
Especially when it came to me
Trips across the country, no need for me to take my wallet
Everything I wanted or needed, you got it.
Declarations of emotions boiling over into screams
Into tears, into passion, into you inside of me.
Soft whispers and adamant protests against me taking my heart away
Soft whispers and adamant demands that with you I stay
Soft whispers and adamant affirmations of your fidelity
Soft whispers and adamant reflections inside a fantasy

Musta been some kind of dream you were having
Walking around outside your reality
Only when it came to me
Conversations about you wishing the biology of your daughter matched mine
Wishing I carried your lineage; that I was connected to your blood line
What a beautiful thought to share with someone you love
What a rarity in men to find someone so uncorrupt.

Musta been some kind of dream you were having
Walking around outside your reality
Guess that's why you came to me
And my truth is nothing but your illusion
My love cradled precariously inside a delusion
She'll never know the truth of you and I
She'll never know the truth of your lie.
Ignorance is bliss, knowledge is mean..
And life is but a dream.

Can you hear me?

I guess I spend too much time in the subway that my prayers to God had no reception; because I think he has yet to receive them. Got me looking up saying "can you hear me now" and checking my iTouch to see if there's an app for that. Or at least a map for that. I tried to reach out and touch someone but got burned by their heat....by their deceit. . .so I retreat?

Maybe my heart's on silent and I keep missing His call because I can't hear it over all the background noise. And its light is broken so no longer does it illuminate when someone tries to get You to me...I guess I'll just stare at its darkness and hope something comes through to me.

#9 Brand New (A female's response to Drake's Song)

This here is on some truthful shit
Guys before you really couldn't handle it
Told you don't believe the haters they don't get
How you locked me down
Now you wear the crown
And I still think you're heaven sent
But damn, is this gonna last?
Not if you keep living in the rumors 'bout my past
Told you if you wanna know then I'm the one to ask
This is why we clash!

Love is something that I don't do.
I don't do, I don't do
But now I find myself in love with you
With you, With you, With you

This here is something personal
You and me are more than just compatible
Knowledge is freeing baby so I let you know
That I don't have to hide
I had another side
But if you wanna question me
Then damn, how can we move on
I can tell you're always thinking something's goin'on
Racing against yourself I guess that's why you feel alone
Don't you see that's wrong?

Now I find myself in love with you
With you, with you
'Cause everything you're doing's brand new
Brand new, brand new, brand new

Everything you're doing's brand new
Nothing that you're doing's too late

He never touched my heart and soul like this
He never pushed my buttons just like this
Doesn't even matter how long I used to make 'em wait
No one else can take your place