Reader Inspired Series: Love deferred.

I'm now taking writing requests, here's my first posting not inspired by my own life but from the words of a friend.

I know it's wrong to hold you accountable for his mistakes
But there's not much more heartache I can take
And my heart breaks before the lie is even told
Maybe I could forgive if it was just one betrayal but this story is old
The faces change but the lie is always the same
It's this cycle in my reality that's pushing me towards insane
You get closer and I push you away
Not because I want to, but because I'm safer this way
See there's no magic pill to take away that kind of pain
You gotta avoid the cause: game's played in love's name.
Some may define my actions as bitter and scorned,
But I'm just trying to keep safe what has already been torn
Damaged, mishandled, mistreated and abused
I'd rather keep you at this distance than to be one more time bruised
I'm not strong enough to handle the battle that comes from deceit
And I'm not willing to fight; nah I'd rather retreat
I'd rather build this wall between myself and the hope I have for you
Because I don't know if I can survive what disappointment puts me through
You look like the kind of man I could spend my life in love with
But you also look like the kind of man who could take my love and vanish
I'm sorry;

The possibility of love is outweighed
By the probability of pain
But if someday I should be willing to fall
I'll make sure that it's you I call.

Sex Therapy part 1.

Kiss me...
Put your lips on my wetness
Use your tongue, play with my heart
Let me apply reverse pressure
Taste your tongue; play that part
Take me further, use your hands
Trace my energy make my skin dance
Push me to my limits then go just a little bit more
I'll sigh deeply; make you lust a little bit more
A little bit softer, now a little bit rough
A little bit of you and me; a lot of us
Soft lips find your neck, my tongue summoning your energy
Circles of heat, pressue and wetness
Tell me Daddy do you like this?
Moan for me baby so I know the bulge has come
Then let me feel what my energy has done
Slide my hand down your shirt
Find the zipper and unleash the girth....
You're warm, throbbing and swollen in my hand
I'm tempted to rip all these clothes off and show you you're my man
That baby, this is yours, every drop of honey is for you
Sweet slippery and weak only for you.
Kiss me again, I stroke you
Touch me again, I stroke you
Lick me again, I stroke you
On my knees again, I own you.
Starved for this part of you I relish every flavor
Take you from warm to wet in this moment I savor...

And you crave her...

Panties soaked you reach up my skirt and slide them down
Use your hand to touch and realize in this you could drown
But you'd die a happy death and you yearn for what comes next
The entrance...

There Will Be Better

There will be better men.
Men who will write melodies in my heart.
Men who will calm the quelling storm.
Men who will conquer the cold lonely nights and emit only their light...
But they won't be you.

There will be better men.
Men who won't lie, steal or cheat.
Men who value the honor of their word.
Men whose smile is as genuine as the verbs that preceded that action of satisfaction...
But they won't be you.

There will be better men.
Men who pay homage to my beauty.
Men who work hard to displace my frown.
Men who carry their armor to battle for love not hate and my fear will dissipate...
But they won't be you.

There will be better men.
Men whose poetry belongs solely to me
Men who think first of God, then US, then himself.
Men who portray a mirrored version of their soul and not some story he was told...to tell...again...
But they won't be you.

There will be better men.
Men whose journey through my life will leave seeds of hope and joy
Men whose purpose is to feed my own positive energy
Men whose eyes never lie or despise nor seek victory in my heart's demise...
But they won't be you.

There will be better men.
One man in particular who will embody all of the above
Whose love through compromise and promise will be sealed by a ring of unity and trust
Who will supply my heart's truest desire through the merging of our flesh and blood
But he won't be you.

I wonder if I'll hesitate before I say "I do."
I wonder if a part of my heart will be my "something blue"
I wonder if my something old will block my feelings for my "something new"
If so I wonder if he'll know I'm thinking "He's not you."

Love Is

This seems to be the song everyone loves the most from me. This and this acapella joint I may post one day.

It's called love is, and I wrote it when I was heart broken.



Lyrics

I was walking love
With you on my mind
Time stood still my love
Just for me to smile
Can you believe that
You have and me have
Found each other intertwined?
You look at me and
I know you see what
What exactly is on my mind

Love is wonderful
Love is kind
Love is beautiful
And I know, I know because you're mine

I still remember love
The day you said hello
And we're still deep in this conversation
No need for hesitation
If they ask me, I'll tell them how I know
That you and me are
Meant to be I
I can feel it every time we kiss
You look at me and
I can't believe that
Love can really feel like this

Love is wonderful
Love is kind
Love is beautiful
And I know, I know because you're mine

You'd have to be blind not to see it
No faith to not believe it
Your energy this chemistry is obvious
You'd have to be dead not to feel it
I take that back 'cause you're in my spirit
And I love, not being in control

Your love is wonderful
Your love is kind
Your love is beautiful
And I know because you're mind

I was walking love,
With you on my mind...