Just Need A Minute

Says he just needs a minute
And I gave him over 365 days
Time doesn't seem to be on my side
Or be enough to change his ways
When love entered our collective vocabulary Hope grew new wings
But the cage of broken promises rendered them two useless things
...and we all know why the caged bird sings...

Sign over my head says "work in progress"
And the errors in my early construction are basically harmless
But there's cracks in his foundation he's never bothered to mend
So he threatens to collapse with a change of the wind
...but we're friends.

So I roll up my sleeves and say let's fix it together
He says cool, but gimme a minute 'cause my design could be better
I tell him he's crazy, the design is perfect; one of the most beautiful ever
And if we don't start soon this minute could turn into forever
...but whatever

He's already shut the doors so I can only comment from the exterior
Yell to him but through the concrete my voice sounds inferior
Those locked doors hold me back from his past,
They guard the secrets in his present he thinks I can't look past
He doesn't see the future's coming fast

Said he just needs a minute
But I gave him over 365 days
Time doesn't seem to be on my side
Or be enough to change his ways
After a while I say I'll come back later, and I head for the gate
He says he's ONE SECOND away and pleads with me to wait
...Its been 7 months to the date.

Tho he's let me in the main entrance, I've never seen the master suite
But he says it will be amazing and he can't wait for me to see it
I've adjusted a few mirrors, hung the address on the door
And I've told him I could really be helping a lot more
He just acts like he doesn't hear me; another locked door.

Gave him a minute then an hour then days now its a year
Try to head back but realize we've built a maze in here
Now I'm stuck between fighting for my own escape
Or fighting to help someone I love find a much better fate
Tough choice to make..
 
I guess I just need a minute
 
Note:  This blog was inspired by Chris Classic's "NeedAMinute" on the mixtape SummerClassic3 which is available for free download here
 

 
 
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Brainstorm

Outside the thunder and lightening fill the sky
The rain bounces against the window and the bottle of wine is empty
I kissed him.
I let my lips give and take the pressure from his while he moved his hands down the curve on my side between my breasts and my hips.
I moaned a little.
Felt my nipples tense with desire and my skin get hot.
I felt the seam of my jeans in between my thighs rub slightly on my now sensitive clit.
I put my hand on his face...a caring embrace
Tried to slow the feeling rising in me.
I pulled away, blushed.
He looked me in my eyes, then at my lips, bit his and re-engaged that kiss
I gave up holding back.
I want what he's craving just as bad if not worse
He moved his hands from my waist down around the curve of my ass and when he found his home, he squeezed.
Again, I moaned.
He continued to squeeze and rub, his kisses went back and forth between continuous and long
To soft and slow, sucking on my bottom lip as he pulled away
Only for a moment...just long enough to look me in my eyes
I sighed.
Felt my hands move down his waist, over his belt, undoing the buckle
Unbuttoning then unzipping his pants...
He kept kissing me until I grabbed the tops of his jeans and pulled them down.
His boxers sat just below his belly button
The indent in his sides were prominent and I let my fingers trace that little valley until I got to the top of the last flimsy piece of material separating me from his glory
I pulled them down, he stepped out of his boxers and his jeans, leaving them in a messy pile under his feet
We moved towards the bed, he's still kissing me, but he's pulled my shirt up over my head, and tossed it in the corner
I push him down, unhook my bra and pull his head towards my nipples, which were now screaming for attention
He takes them into his mouth, his lips enveloping as much as they could, while the broad middle of his tongue applied soft and even pressure to my nipples
I closed my eyes, felt my clit pulsate in excitement.
I pull away, kiss him again, put my knees on the ground and admire his passion
Every vein, the length, the color, the strength.
I was in love with it. I wet my lips and kissed it.
I kissed the tip, licked around the perimeter and kissed it again.
Again I lick my lips, close them slightly and let the pressure of pulling him into my mouth open them just enough
He tenses up and lets out a sound of pleasure
I put my hand around the base and slowly move my mouth over the head
Up and down with soft pressure from my tongue and my lips
He touches my hair and closes his eyes.
My mouth is watering and I take my tongue and wet every inch of his desire
Put the shaft between my lips and slide up and down along the full length of him,
Pausing at the top to suck on the head
He grabs my hair tighter.
He wants it all inside of me.
I comply
Keeping my hands on the base I take whats now slippery and hard and swallow as much as I could.
As I slide him inside my tongue throbs along the veins that are pulsating in my mouth.
Once I've got all of him in me I let let the head bounce up and down against the back of my throat
Opening me up a little more
I reach out with my tongue while hes still fully submerged and I lick the round pockets of flesh that's just past the base
He sighs.
I can't breathe, so I slowly slide up, releasing him, but still stroking him with my hands.
He's grateful for not allowing any interruptions in pleasure. 
I let my breasts envelope his base while I play with his head with my hands.
I kiss his stomach, kiss a trail right back down to his need
I take a deep breath and slide him back inside.
He's so excited, his energy is making my midsection throb against my tight jeans
Every time I move I feel little burst of pleasure
Close my eyes so i can feel where he's throbbing and give those areas special attention
I slide him in and out of my mouth, slowly, then a little faster...
I pause at the tip every now and then, play with it while I use my hands to stroke the shaft
After some time he whispers..."I'm about to cum"
My body feels like I'm going to also
I find the rhythm he loves the most
Bounce up and down on my knees so my breasts come up and down against his thigh
And my clit goes up and down against that seam I told you about
And his dick goes up and down inside my mouth
He grabs my head and starts to stroke against my tongue
All the while repeating "I'm about to cum"
I feel the pressure as he fills up inside me
The first warm salty taste and I'm ready
My body explodes as I orgasm simultaneously
And I suck every drop out until he's drained
And I'm tamed.
The storm's over but I'm still raining

Modern Fairytale: Prince Charming

Once upon a time, in a land only in our minds
There was a prince who was faithful, generous and kind
He had a six foot plus frame and skin kissed by the sun
And though desired by many, he only loved one.
He cherished every moment he had to be with her
Proclaimed his love to everyone, even facebook and twitter!
He bought her flowers on days when he thought she needed a lift
Thoughtful in his gestures, generous with his gifts
His words were bonds and his actions were great
His politeness was evident, even after their first date.
He did not confuse a queen with a peasant or a hoe
And though he only chased money, he put her above his dough
He never smothered her, nor did he leave her floundering with space
He cooked her meals with his own pots, on his own stove in his own place
When she went out her way to return each and every favor
He was grateful for her attention so in her favor, he did savor.
Although a greater lover she would never find in this land,
He was first her best friend, and always her man
When the time came for their opinions to differ from each other
He never called her out her name or forgot that he loved her
He never lied or manipulated; his intentions were true
So she never doubted him when he whispered to her "I love you"
He was impressed with her mind and enamored with her style
He paid attention to the things that would always make her smile
When the time came for them to marry and create children of their own
He was sure to make sure their house STAYED a home
He taught strength through courage and was morally sound
Kept to each of his promises, and his queen always held him down
He loved hip hop and music, but never let a lyric dictate his life
He never used words like "bitch" when describing his wife
....

(to be continued)

Greatest Love

I listen to you and you always make sense
I build up walls and you break through my every defense
I try to hide those things I feel that show my vulnerability
Those empty spaces in my heart that only you fill in me..
But you speak them into the air, and it's beautiful to my ears
You touch every part of my soul from my strengths to my fears
I wonder why I was so scared to hold them to the light
Every time I feel my thoughts going left, you make them right
Nothing compares to you. Nothing makes me feel like you do
It's so pure, the love I have for you
At my lowest lows, you comfort me
At my highest highs you fly with me
You motivate me to do better and be greater
I'm grateful for you then, now, and later.
To you:
My eternal song; ever changing melody
Complimenting feelings through necessary harmony
Pulsating rhythm keeping me steady in time
I hold you in my energy, I keep you in my mind

Thank you.

Good Morning...

Warm body under cold sheets
I feel the pulse slow, even though this city never sleeps
The sun peeking through the shades cause my eyes to flutter under closed lids
I start to move to a more conscious state but I'd rather be dreaming about what he did
Somewhere in the middle I remember his presence above my skin
I feel his energy pulling mine up as his lips moved softly to my cheek, and then pressed in
I sigh happily because I think I must still be dreaming,
I feel my lips get wet in anticipation of what I'm needing
The softness of his touch contradicting how voracious he was last night
Like my passion was something he could just could ignite
He just sets my body on fire over and over again
I fight the love until my body starts to throb and just give in
Again I feel his energy come closer to mine
Feel his lips press against my lips, then my eyes.
I smile
He whispers "I love you" and his voice is so soft and deep
My eyes are still closed but my body is far from asleep
He kisses my forehead and I can feel my love start to form puddles of pleasure
Contract the muscles surrounding my passion to relieve some pressure
Lazily I drift back into a state of bliss
Remembering the satisfaction of every kiss
He stays a moment more, touches my hand before he leaves
I wake up recalling his actions like they were part of my dream
But I still feel his energy; I can relive each scene when I close my eyes
Thats my good morning, and I'll savor it, until he's back to give me my good night...

Keeping It Real

"Girl he's not even worth your tears!
Be strong; he already got you for too many years!
Don't give him another second of your energy or time,
You're too beautiful and talented to waste on his kind
He's a dog! He's a player! You can do better, and that's real!"
....Could you please shut the fuck up and give my heart a chance to heal?

I'm sorry. I know that you're just trying to help
I know you're trying to help me unfeel what I felt
But really? I need a chance to process this pain
Because despite what you think, I really loved what's his name
I know you never understood how I could fall for his type
But MY heart and MY love doesn't have to make sense in YOUR life
I'm not a child. I don't need you to fix what's now broken
That's my responsibility alone, all I need are your arms to be open
I just need to be able to talk to my friend
I just need you to listen and not say a thing
I don't need you to judge the tears I'm going to cry
And say "how could you be sad over that kind of guy"
That kind of guy wrote me the most beautiful words
That kind of guy's touch made me forget how to hurt
I don't need you to make me forget about the nights we lay in pleasure
I don't need you to parade new men and force me to choose, compare and measure
So don't tell me to ignore the weather.

If it's raining let me feel it so I know what it's like to be wet
Let me see the clouds form and the skies darken; the sun is NOT out....yet.
I will not drown in sorrow. I will not become consumed by this moment
But if I don't first hold it how can I ever let go of it...
Right?
Right.
There isn't a magic phrase or word you're going to say to make this better
So don't try; if this girl wants to cry, just let her.
I need to be honest to myself and feel what I feel
So when I do smile again, you'll know I'm keeping it real.

This won't be easy

This won't be an easy road.
I won't always be warm, some days will feel cold.
Sometimes the rain will seem unending and the clouds will seem static
The smile I dawn when you walk in a room won't always be automatic
You'll start to wonder if I'm still in love with you
Or has the time and the pain altered my view
But you can relax, love, you're a part of my song
You're the melody in my heart that will always belong
Sometimes I'll sing it off key or forget a few words
But it will always be the track my soul prefers
You may need to hold me up when I'm feeling weak
Or find the meaning in my actions when I fail to speak
But I promise to do the same through the laughter and tears
And you'll never have to wonder if anyone cares
I'll always be here.

Tweet said she doesn't care if she and him stay together
'Cause that's the part that never lasts forever
So even if tomorrow we find there's new experiences to be had
And the touch I crave is no longer from your hand
My love is unconditional; I will always feel you
And if you need me the concern I show will be real too

Right now we're somewhere between hello and see you soon
We can't tell if the 12 means midnight or noon
The waiting is cruel, so the patience is crucial
Don't pump your breaks or speed up; let's just float into neutral