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This time, this man kisses my lips
My center goes somewhere left, right, and eventually dips
Down to a place where I drip down so he can drown
I've felt his lips against mine before
But this time, this man better give me more
We taste like gray goose and lust
You can call it love minus the trust
Minus the us, we're just two kids at play
Two bodies of energy pushing the limits of the day
I say, "What are you doing," as his hands previously roaming intentionally
Find its way to my belt and undoes it carefully
Kissing me from my lips, to my cheek, up my neck and to my ear
He says"shut up," in a whisper but my body heard it loud and clear
He's in charge of this night as it creeps towards day
I no longer hold the lust I'm feeling at bay
No; I obey
I feel the material slide down my thighs and over my calves
Unconsciously lift my feet as he pulls them past
As he separates my legs I'm thinking, "Please let him enter"
Instead I feel him merge his kiss with my throbbing center
His tongue cool in contrast to the heat I emit
Dives into warm puddles that scream what I won't admit
My eyes close and I feel myself starting to fight
But he grips my thighs and everything feels soooooo right
Arching my back I hear my breathing get staggered and heavy
Soft moans exit into the air; my energy's in some kind of frenzy
I exit in and out of consciousness, float through levels of awareness
My mind once unsure of what I needed is now at it's clearest:
I need him.
I need him to touch me where I've been longing to be touched
To kiss me where I've no longer felt loved
To take the pressure I know he must feel growing
And release it within the walls from which this river is flowing
I'm so fucking open

...

(to be continued)

The Best List (part 1)

The best conversation I ever had started not with a voice but with a note and it was more like "melodies played" than it was "words we spoke" and I hope it never ends because the topic's always dope; keeps it real, helps me heal, helps me feel, helps me cope.

The best friend I ever had has 3 or 4 faces and you can catch her at any moment in 3 or 4 places. What hate and pain dishes out she always comes and erases so there's nothing I wouldn't do for the smile on those faces. Thanks to "her" I have not one but 3 or 4 home bases.

The best sex I ever had lasted 10 whole years, not consistently but frequently enough to keep the care, and I swear...magnetic doesn't begin to describe the way we paired but like the first words in a Beenie song "I can feel it in the air." Love never came without hate so we sexed through wear and tear but if I could do it all again I would never ever share.

Music Inspired Series: Last Night I Missed You

I missed you last night. I lay moist from the heat;

Beater clinging to my skin; traces of the curves on my chest slightly darker at the peaks

Slightly lonely but drunk from your memory I smile stupidly at some commercial I'm not even watching

Some light from the TV casts shadows on my wall and they turn into lazy focal points for this day dream

Though its no longer day.

I turn over to one side and let the comforter lay loosely between my legs and separate my thighs

I still wear that awkward smile

Retrace the last words we said in my head over and again

Shake from my mind the memory and switch from reality to fantasy

Close my eyes and I'm no longer alone but become half of the energy floating through the room

I feel my skin vibrate where I imagine your fingers would trace

Down from my shoulders to my hands, across my back and into my arch you press your face

I feel your lips and the vibration moves from a feeling to a sight

It's like I'm noticing different colors or moving through some kind of light

Around my skin the pressure from your lips and your tongue alternate with the glide of your hands

Now I don't understand

Because I didn't mean to sigh but I heard the sound escape and the air release

I conjured up more of your energy

No longer a tremble or a vibration I felt my body start to pulsate

My breathing no longer a sigh; heavy and increasing at its own pace

I am radiating heat;

The white cotton clinging to my breasts is translucent and wet

The warmest part of my essence releases and tenses

I throb and the energy is more than extensive

Hold on as long as I can and just before it exits

I whisper your name

So glad you came...

Guest Feature: Reality TV

It's like a movie screen that flashes across my eyes. These visions of you, I and that stroke. It doesn't cause heart failure but the limousine you drive that parks so perfectly in my garage does give me palpitations.

Closing my eyes that movie screen becomes HD as I see the sweat drippin from my brow, feel your tongue glide across my skin. Asking how I taste, your moan let's me knw how sweet and sticky your tastebuds feel, enjoyin that first layer and craving the next.

Our hands clasp and your thrust sends me over the edge. Biting my lips, tightening my thighs...you whisper in my ear, "talk to me"....I tell you go faster but wait! Not that fast, right there. Covering every inch of the egyptian cotton, these gymnastic-like movements occur. I grip, you push, I scratch, you pull...wondering if your suspended in air using one hand to easily apply those rhythmic movements to my backside.

My mouth waters as the back and forth movements drive my spine insane. I wanna taste you but your grip feels so good. Breathing heavy, scalp drenched, the operatic sounds from my vocal chords reach pitch tones unimaginable....I scream your name, you scream mine as you bounce me up and down your column of ecstasy.

Pulling my hair, you arch my back...I close my eyes and right before I explode, I open them and realize your in front of me...fully clothed, smiling...asking me if I'm ok....drifting off into this fantasy of mine occurs each time I see you but you'll never know. Scared to approach, I keep it all inside, until the right time....if there is a time...but now, I'll settle for the screen across my eyes.

Written by @AlwaysVaughny

What you do to me

That feels so good
It's like...
You knew just...*ooh*...where.....to find...*damn*...that...*aah*...feeling

Or did you put it there as I was lying here unaware
You're so damn good at this...I don't even care.


Eyes closed I feel my breathing get irregular and light
Deep sighs because everything you're doing is right
Every ounce of insecurity is dripping from sight
I don't wanna catch my breath I wanna chase it through the night
Exhale more times than I mean to, but I need to, 'cause I feel you..

...and I feel too.

That's more than I expected when I opened the door
More than any part of my body was even hoping for
I just wanted a distraction and a little bit of heat
Now I'm stuttering your name until the dawn finds me asleep
Or maybe finds you still deep
Now look what you've done
Look what you've begun
Look at the web you've spun
Look how these waters run

How'd you know that if you kissed me there I'd re energize?
Or that a touch right there would tense the muscles in my thighs?
Oh damn girl don't cry,
I know he's taking you high
The air is thin up here, your brain is no longer clear
Now I no longer hear any of the voices of fear

It's just you
Sweet salty caramel coated strong sweaty rock hard (good lord!) you

And me.
Soft supple slippery curvy bendy tender (i need you to remember) me

It's been so long since I've felt so free
You made the transition seem so easy

You just don't know what you do to me.

Reader Inspired Series: Can you hear it?

My heart beats louder than my mind speaks
This kind of internal volume does nothing but make my body weak
Hard to hear what you're saying over my own needs
So forgive me if I'm following my own leads
But I know me
A few days from now I'm gonna wish I didn't say yes
Think about how I keep failing my own damn test
And I know we should speak never, and fuck even less
But love lusts what lust loves so I'm-a let you caress
And all the rest
'Cause you're the best - well...not really but I'll settle for less
At least until I find more; but if I'm scared to open other doors,
How can I possibly obtain what I'm looking for?
Standing still is cowardly, and outwardly, I am that Lion
I can tell my bravado is something that nobody is buying
Then again I'm not really trying to be bought, sold, or rented
And I definitely don't need to justify my heart or defend it
But I wouldn't mind if this song its been playing was ended
It's like a loop that's been going on for years
Attracting the same kind of disillusioned ears
Who make my same eyes cry the same kind of tears

Can you hear it?

I shouldn't be here

Came across the above youtube video and in my mind I lengthened and repeated and edited these chords. Came up with a song. Below are the lyrics.

You called, I answered
But none of that matters.
At the end of the day,
I shouldn't be here

You spoke, I listened
But none of that's important to me
No, I shouldn't be here

You smiled, and I'm scared.
I'm trembling with fear.
But who cares?
I shouldn't be here

Now your hand is on my face
Like it doesn't know its place
Is on another her, a different me
But you touch me like we're meant to be

Those eyes, I recognize
But this time, I crave the lie
Oh no,
I shouldn't be here

You paused, I felt the heat
Now nothing else matters
But I shouldn't be here

My mind's playing our song
You're standing too close please move along
I shouldn't be here

Turn around you stupid girl
Just walk away, don't you dare stay
You should know
I shouldn't be here

Then you caught me by surprise
Felt your lips press against mine
What are we doing? Didn't I learn?
Nothing that fire can do but burn

But your eyes, I recognize
And this time, I crave the lie
No no
I shouldn't be here

But if you touch me again
And say you love me again
Then in this moment I'll give in
Then everyone loses, nobody wins

Or

Say nothing and save my heart
Play the villain; play your part
So it's clear

I shouldn't be here